PAIN & POWER

Our Story

Two of my most difficult experiences in life. 1. My mom’s sudden and unexpected death.  2. The Adoption Journey of my second child.

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My mom’s death in 2003 came out of nowhere just 6 months before my wedding day. As an only child I had never felt so alone. What did I do? I got my first puppy ever. My mom never allowed me to have a dog, but I desperately needed a new life in my world. Just weeks after entered my Shar-Pei, Ebi. All I knew at the time was to look for a dog that wouldn’t get too big for my home. I learned very quickly what making a purchase from a breeder who had not tested their dogs, had not properly evaluated them, or had them seen by a veterinarian prior to go-home day meant. There I was, still grieving, suffering from anxiety and depression, and now I had an adorably wrinkly dog who’s eyes were already damaged, resulting in partial blindness, that needed immediate surgery. We survived the puppy days, and she was a great dog. Not the best with strangers, but never harmed our children. She never had the temperament that I needed in a therapy dog. That wasn’t in her DNA. That’s not who she was meant to be. She preferred her space, was more aloof than I wanted for a family pet, but she lived a good life with us.

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The Adoption Journey of my second child started in 2006. After a treacherous process, unexpected delays, and challenges, we brought her home in 2008. She clearly suffered from PTSD, intellectual delay, sensory processing issues, and attachment issues. When she first came home, the sounds of barks made her tick. She was hesitant to even pet a dog. As she grew, so did her behavioral challenges, and lack of connection with humans. She desperately needed a friend. Then, entered our mild-tempered AussieDoodle, Hartleigh.

Hartleigh’s purpose in our home as a new pup was to provide comfort to her. I worked with Hartleigh on being held, developing trust. Hartleigh served a purpose from day one and so much more. For once, our daughter was holding something with a heartbeat. She was comforting and talking to a living creature. She was able to love a living creature in life. To this day, in 2021, she still struggles with the ability to bond and attach to humans, but she has Hartleigh. She talks to Hartleigh, hold Hartleigh (sometimes too much), and she loves her. It is my hope that the pups we raise will be able to serve others in the same capacity. Puppies that are life engaging. Family pets that serve the purpose of a joyful bond.